Last Year of This Life Indeed

I would like to tell you everything I learned at the Tony Robbins seminar I just returned from except that would be impossible. It would take me at least 50 hours (which is how long UPW is) and a lot of dance music, flashing lights and more hugs and high fives than you’ve probably received in your entire life. But even then it wouldn’t make enough sense to really stick. The words are out there, all of them. We’ve read them; we’ve heard them; we’ve pretended to understand them and put them to work on ourselves. But without the experience they don’t hold enough weight.

Tony Robbins is not a motivator. He is a strategist who relies on a system of total immersion to snap us out of negative patterns and set new ones. He teaches us how our brains and emotions work while giving us the strategies that will help us focus and change our thoughts.

I’m not a different person now. However I am the happiest, clearest, biggest version of myself that I’ve ever been. All I want is to keep moving forward from this height and to keep growing, never to sink back down to where I used to be.

For god’s sake people I walked over hot coals, six times hotter than any stove you’ve ever burnt yourself on, and I didn’t feel a thing! The concept of mind over matter has been stretched to a whole new level of meaning for me.

Some of the most helpful nuggets of wisdom I gleaned were about how the movies on repeat in our minds were shot by amateurs, tiny little six year old versions of us who had no real clue what they were witnessing. How many times have you told a toddler they can’t do something outrageously dangerous and they threw a fit, screaming about how much you hate them?

It’s perfectly fine that at three years old they can’t figure out that you’re keeping them safe because you love them. What’s not fine is when we’re still replaying those same videos in our heads thirty years later and we’re not even aware of it. There is a science to the fact that we all unconsciously hold ourselves back.

We rely on 2 million year old brains wired for survival and expect them to bring us happiness. That’s not possible without a working compound interest strategy that we grow with gratitude and positive reinforcement every single day. Seriously if we all approached ourselves like puppies at doggie daycare getting treats and love for everything we ever got right, we would all go A LOT farther in our lives.

We grow or we die. It’s up to us which one we choose. I can say with certainty that this is the last year of life as I’ve known it in a much bigger sense than when it started. I couldn’t give two shits about finding a boyfriend or a husband right now. I’ve got a book to finish and a triathlon to train for!

Long distance hugs and high fives! ❤ ❤ ❤


So then what I did was I walked across hot coals in bare feet. And, as it turns out, this is how excited for life one looks after one does such a thing:

Day one was above and beyond anything I could have imagined. So much to tell you but I’ve been going non-stop for almost 17 hours. It is time for some much needed sleep.

LOVE & LIGHT ❤ ❤ ❤



Refreshed and Ready To Go!

I love my puppy Tobi. Most nights he sleeps in my bed like a restless 35 lb. toddler. He changes position on the hour and growls at me if I accidentally touch him or roll towards him.

In the morning when I wake up he is always in the dead center of the bed, sound asleep in the most peaceful way, with me uncomfortably twisted around his tiny, yet somehow enormous, body so as not to disturb him in any way.

I love my puppy Tobi.

I also love sprawling out across a plush king size bed, sleeping like the dead myself and awaking naturally to the sun rising over L.A. with a sweet view from the 12th floor of this awesome hotel. Good morning world!

Thank you Orbitz for this crazy deal! Thank you life for granting me the means to get here!

Unleash the Power Within Day 1 here I come!

Day 1 – Registration

I arrived in Los Angeles around 1:00 PM and made my way to my hip boutique hotel near downtown. It’s been almost ten years since the last time I was here. I’ve never had a chance to get to know the city well and I’ve never been here alone without anyone to drive me around.

I love the swank-itude of L.A. in small doses and I do feel like I’m on a mini-adventure. It’s such a fun reminder that we should all occasionally give ourselves outrageous gifts!

The info I had gotten from the Tony Robbins team said registration was tonight but it didn’t say what time. So I decided to make my way to the hotel to check it out and if I was too early I’d just go grab dinner. I arrived at 4:00 PM and the line had already started for doors that weren’t opening until 6:00 PM. That’s the kind of seminar this is.

I’ve heard the key to success here is to give more than you expect to get and then *** BLAMMO *** you’ll receive more in return than you ever could have imagined. With that in mind I let my guard down immediately, made six new friends in line (texts and Facebook friend requests already exchanged) and did my best to keep smiling through the most over the top registration process I’ve ever experienced.

Imagine a hundred volunteers jumping up and down, yelling like crazy, every single one of them coming at you one by one insisting on giving you a high five. I’ve already received a water bottle, some snacks, Tony’s newest book Unshakeable and a 182 page workbook that literally screams “This shit will change your life!” all over it.

There are 9,000 people attending this conference. It is going to be a madhouse of inspiration and positive energy. Haters be damned, I am already so thrilled to be here!


February ended lightly, warmly, blissfully when I awoke to the sound of chirping birds at my friend Joannie’s house on Oahu. I ushered March in by living my old Hawaii life. Hiking around Tantalus and the North Shore, chanting to the trees at Lyon Arboretum, wading up to my ankles in the perfect blue off Lanikai Beach.

I turned 39 on a bicycle ride out to Waimanalo with my coach and decompressed from some curious decisions I’ve made of late. It was sublime.

When I returned home I made a few changes to my 2017 Action Plan. It occurred to me that while my thesis sentence focused on writing and adventure, my actual goals had nothing to do with either.

The truth is I don’t want to buy a house. Not right now and not by myself anyway. Every time I look at a home that’s for sale, I sit in the driveway in my car and cry. Then I back out and drive away without ever stepping foot on the property. Also, I have almost no interest in finishing A Course in Miracles. I’ve tried but it’s just not for me.

I believe staying the course is vital for success, but only once we’re certain we’re on a good one. My first pass didn’t quite hit the mark so here is my revised Action Plan for 2017:

1) Edit my book

2) Kick ass in the Syracuse Half Iron Man 70.3

3) Cut way back on sugar

4) Go on an adventure

A big adventure is in the works but for now just a little one:

Tomorrow afternoon I land in L.A. to ride out the month California style. I’ve told very few people what I’m doing in Los Angeles. To most I say I’m seeing friends and family. Those things are true. I guess I’m just a little nervous. Those who love me have raised their eyebrows at my choices quite a few times in my life and I absolutely loathe defending myself to them.

Tonight I’m turning to Seth Godin for advice instead of inspiration:

“Sooner or later it comes to this: Great work is the result of seeking out tension, not avoiding it. Great work doesn’t require reassurance, in fact, it avoids it.”

So what’s the big whoop? I’m attending a Tony Robbins seminar called Unleash the Power Within. Maybe those sorts of things have weird reputations or have been controversial in the news (remember the fire walk incidents?). Maybe they sound a bit cult-ish. I trust I’m strong enough to dilute the Kool-Aid with a flush of SmartWater.

All I know is it’s something I’ve wanted to do for a long time and I’ve finally come into the means to do it. I’m really excited and nervous, in a good way!

I’ll report back with the scoop so long as I can see straight. Apparently these seminars go non-stop for 12-15 hours a day. The one I’m going to is four days long.

Wish me luck and I’ll see you on the flip 🙂


Happy Valentine’s Day

Happy Valentine’s Day! I hope you are all experiencing joy and love in many ways today (and every day for that matter).

Today marks my 8th solo V-Day and if the stars have anything to say about it, maybe my last. A girl can dream, right? No moping here though. I’m spending the evening with an awesome girlfriend at the gym. We’re taking a Body Combat class, ha!

Here’s to strength, health, happiness and all the different kinds of love we encounter along these twisting paths of life we lead ❤ ❤ ❤